Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Anniversary of Melancholy

It is raining today.

Four years ago today, it was raining as well. I remember.

The sky looked just as gray; the tree branches drooped then as they do now.

That day, I listened to slow, lilting songs just like I am doing today.

February 11th 2005 was very similar to today, February 11th 2009.

But I distinctly remember that four years ago today, the thing I fantasized about most was jumping off of the balcony and plummeting to my death.

Today, although I am feeling just as weary, I don't think I want to do that anymore.

Maybe that's what healing looks like.


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